1/31/10 The Last day of January

Already…

Hmmm…

I need to really focus on the proposal….

I think i have focused too much on blogging thanks to circumstances.

Since Si Woo came back, I will forget about Han Geng naver blogging. 

I think that would be OK.

Just focus on English blog, keep translating those posts.

Forget about other bloggers who will understand I am very busy …so I don’t have to socialize with them.

In addition, that’s not my priority to socialize with them.

I don’t have  such a time.

So…   My new resolution again.

1.  PROPOSAL  five hours no matter what!

2. BLOGGING  one hour that’s it at this point  (working on translation only)

3.Michael -two hours every day at least. reading, talking, and playing with him.

4. EDSP500 teaching  – two hours every other day.

Please…you have to … now…no turning point. you know T.T

A Foolish Man’s Dock

“ Time resembles a dock..

 So takes my docking…

 But the fully loaded catches were…

Merely  the loss from an embrace between you and me.

At love’s dock, I am waiting for you with anxiety,

In the darkness, in the fear of you missing me,

Burning my boat, I am just waiting…

I cannot turn around

You have to help me out

Where are you drifting around…

With whom are you…?

Although it’s you who have to rescue both my world and dream…

I cannot turn around…

God for how long you want to hurt me

How foolish I am…

How much I am in love with you..

Guarding this place in loneliness you gave me…

I will not leave you …

I just foolishly keep guarding this foolish man’s dock …”

Seven Tasks on 1/17/10

As the HR teacher from my freshman year said, at least seven tasks every day. This will make my life more productive. More productive life, more satisfied life?

1. House chores .. yeah.. I am housewife.. this must be my first priority all the time.

 2. Cleaning up my desk, files; it’s too messy. I need to be more organized.

3. Finally… look at my proposal paper. Set up reference lists into the file folder and make them handy.

4. Read EDSP500 articles.

5. get back to those people who sent me emails about EDSP500 articles.

6. Make a written-plan for a proposal

7. Read EDSP500 papers again to check next week questions

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Another new day.

I decided to open a new blog. Obviously I am addicted to the action of blogging itself.

I have several personal spaces to keep a record of  my daily hassles: iphone, school planner, gmail account, and personal journal book. 

But still I need another space where I can write, edit, and save my own story… probably later on I can easily trace back. 

Yesterday I watched a movie Avatar… it was a shock to me.

I became full of jealousy of the talent of one person, the director and screen writer James Cameron.

It’s too complicate to express my true feeling right now.

But onething is clear that I have been defeated by myself so far.

I never estimate what my full potential would be.

I am already 38 years old. Instead of learning the life’s wisdom by age, I rather learned to how to justify my decision at every moment.

This is the life I chose. I have to take a full responsibility. No more avoiding, no more gets-by… 

I saw a person who made his fantasy into the reality. Why can’t I?

Persistence..

Persistence…

Everything should have a purpose, a goal, and a meaning.

Then you will have put your heart into it.

I decided to keep my Korean blog as a personal hobby place.

Probably once a week, I will post something but no more trash posts.

Something my heart carries….

Something I really put an effort on it.

It’s another day..

I need to read a lot, write a lot, think a lot, and write a lot…

Oh… yes…

What a beautiful life. Isn’t it?